Part Eight

heylowwwwwwww, long time no see! it turned out because i'm 9th grader now, school things are kinda stressing (pressures, boring subjects, extra classes and blablabla)
now that i wanna share my stories, i wanna tell you first, things are pretty different around here now.
first, i'm not in the same class w/HIM
second, he had his haircut and now is shorter
third, he's taller, much much taller than before (which is way cooooooler)
maybe that's all about him. HAHAH NYAMPAH DEH GUE ;p
well, even i'm in the different class now doesn't mean i have to give up, right?
i can still meet him in recesses, after school, moving classes, extra classses. there's still many chances right?

do you want me, to hide the feelings and look the other way? shit.

beh

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

h-o-w?

He's really really not my type
Oh my God, rumors about him is too many
What's the good point about him?


i wonder how, i wonder why, how could i be so bilnd?
he's not my type
he's rude
he's cold
"come on, he's not worth it" everybody said that.
am i that stubborn?
maybe more than that.
i don't really understand.


GOD PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON

ya think?

fall in love with a jerk is harder than i thought :'''''''(

Part Seven

many bad rumors about him spreading all these days, as someone who loves gossips, i'll never miss it for sure, but you know what?
many advices comes to my ear, but as a stubborn person, i'll never listen to it or follow it even once.

i don't care what they say, i'm in love with him:)

escaping from reality

Pengen kabur aja deh rasanya....... Krn sampai skrng saya tidak bisa menerima realita bahwa saya memang suka sm dia

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do you know what it feels like, loving someone that in a rush to threw you away?

:'''''''''')

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

Part Six

maunya ngaku tapi ga bisa, liat mukanya aja ga kuat, mau nyampein lewat tmnnya tp takut.
walaupun takut, kalo dia lewat serasa kyk foto panning.
maaf
gue
suka
sm
lo
"makasih".



That childish first love from long past, how full of pain and uncertainty it was, that bitter love. If i move on, perhaps all the bitter feelings would disappear, but my love, just like then, even as now, is still bitter




come on! she just hopes that you could understand her just a bit. because this girl is falling stupid for you!

-________-

tomorrow, school starts
which means....
GUE KETEMU DIA!!!!
(apasih)
but, wish me luck for tomorrow (and for another tomorrows)


byeee

Part Five

Happy 14th birthday!
that's all i can say deh
gue jg ga bisa ngmng langsung


pokoknya, wish you all the best♥
what's best for you is the best for me:)

ya Allah, i wish i can share smiles and happiness with him in his special day.
and i wish my wish isn't just a wish

mmmm

cape ga ya? cape ah, eh ngga deng.
ah tau ah

karena mereka bilang, menyerah soal cinta adalah hal yang tabu(?)
gagal soal cinta adalah hal yg biasa?
cinta ga indah kalo ga di coba dan ga di rasa?
atau....
cinta ga punya mata tp punya hati?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WHAT A HOPELESS ROMANTIC! believe it or not, gue orngnya gak kyk gt kok (InsyaAllah)

P.S : i'm waiting for tomorrow!
lah emng bsk ada apa?
mmmm liat aja deh di posting bsk

hopeless love story

haduh haduh akhir2 ini gue malah baca2 cerita2 yg menghanyutkan gue
blah.

i thought it would be easy to see those love birds inside the books
but honestly, that's painful

apasih.

Part Four

i was looking for desi that day, and looking through the window in my class.
and he started to stand beside me, he looked out through the same window as usual, he's very cold, he didn't even notice that my cheeks were blushing. *sigh*
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
if only you can understand me even just a bit........


the truth is, you'rejust following where the wind blows right?
you don'tknow where to go.
no directions.


ya Allah, please give him a clue.

:9 - - - - -> ♥

curly fries? hmm thats tempting.....
in each bite, you'll fall into its curls
speaking about curls, that reminds me......

Part Three

i heard something from my friend today.
she's whispering something into my ear and that news put me in the state of shock.
what's that about?

well, she said that "the guy", believe it or not, he had a broken home.
and now he lives with his caring grandmother.
no wonder, he's so damn cold.

if only you can lend your problems and pain from your shoulder into mine :"(

Part Two

he's walking right in front of me
i'm blushing madly but he's..
as cold as always
i thought it'll be alright if i'm pretending like he wasn't or never even exist
but......?

lets just sing a song then shall we?

I've always been the kind of girl
That hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I've got to say
But I had this dream
Bright inside of me
I'm going to let it show
It's time
To let you know
To let you know

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life where you're the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it's to far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way

This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found
Who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is the real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now
Gonna let the light
Shine on me
Now I've found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be

This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
This is me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing

Now I found who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me

This is me - Demi Lovato

Part One

he's on my mind
he's name is repeating over and over again
well, he turned me upside down.

well.. you guys should know, that i already falling for this guy:)

his head filled with curls, thick curls.
his eyes deep eyes were dark brown, its like almost-black-dark brown.
his voice is throaty but soft, his voice really describes his personality
calm, cool but cold
i don't know what makes him really attractive for me.
phisically, (for me) his perfect but his personality? mmmm 100% not my type.

i don't really know (honestly, never) what's on his mind, he always acts like he'll never fall for any girl.

is this kind of thing annoys me? sure.

hello readers!

first of all, i would like to say thanks to Allah, because of it, finally i can finish this blog succesfully (soalnya ga pernah jd bikin blog yg iniiii;p). and hey, this blog is not actually about me, its about "someone". nanti jg taulah, and from now on, i'll use small letters, WHYYY? karena kalo kegedean kan.... ya ini bkn ttg gue, its about.... him, the one that always been on my mind recently ;p

thanks for reading! that's very thoughtful of you guysss:)